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(excusez-moi?) [04 Jan 2007|11:49pm] so,when things break...you try your best to fix what you are left with..right? RIGHT. the new year has brought of series of breaks. originally, i was supposed to move to ireland february 13th after at least a year and a half of planning and scheming to do so. certain things have happened in the past week...things i dont particularly care to go into detail on...but i dont think i will be able to move for a while. my family needs me here. right where i am. ireland is too far. im going back to suffolk. i need it for health insurance. i signed up for night classes. i am going to get a job at waldbaums during the day. im just...i dont want to see gilhooley at school. he was so confident in me moving...he always talked about it. i feel rejected in some respect. like ive let people down...including myself. i need the job at waldbaums more than ever. the monetary situation is not so great right now. my parents were just dumped over the head with a lot...just when they thought things would be okay. it pains me to see them offering me money all the time. i cant do it. this will be good though. im gonna grow up. im gonna be "a big girl now". i need it. i need a work ethic. i need to be strong. i need to show strength after defeat.

(excusez-moi?) [08 Sep 2005|04:18pm] in case you were wondering, or caring, i have a new lj. tara__squad. add it bitches

(excusez-moi?) i never knew i could do without... [29 Nov 2003|10:56pm] [ mood | reminiscent ] [ music | Buzzcocks-Noise Annoys ] jeff is a whore. he just reminded me of plantains! i used to get them all the time at this one restaurant in boca raton, florida. and the mariachi band. oh man. i havent been there in about 4 years? shit...i need to go to florida right now and eat me some cuban food. haha.

(excusez-moi?) [26 Nov 2003|11:26pm] [ mood | optimistic ] [ music | Joan Osbourn-St Teresa ] i cant help but ask myself when was the last time seeing myself this happy? this content with everything? a long time, my friend, a long time.

(excusez-moi?) turn the lights off, carry me home. [24 Nov 2003|07:31pm] [ mood | lonely ] [ music | Blink 182-Adams Song ] no matter what, i cannot get over him, still have feelings for him no matter how much time passed or what happened... (whatever that is? if anything) i cant forget him its like hes constantly on my mind im not sure if im attracted to him or just miss him? i really want to talk to him to tell him whats really on my mind but that is kinda hard... ive never been one with words. so if hes reading this, im sure he knows who he is, i would really love to talk with you again and im sorry for anything that has happened between us.

(excusez-moi?) photos of last night. [22 Nov 2003|02:56pm] [ mood | cheerful ] [ music | Ani DiFranco-As Is ] cuz when i look around i think this, this is good enough and i try to laugh at whatever life brings cuz when i look down i just miss all the good stuff when i look up i just trip over things</b> -ani "as is" ( Read more... )

(6 je t'aimes | excusez-moi?) hail to the almighty ani. [22 Nov 2003|02:42am] [ mood | awake ] [ music | Ani DiFranco-Born A Lion ] last night i thought i was going to die i woke up at 3am horribly sick, a migraine headache and vomiting my fucking stomach out at one point i started crying my stomach felt like the muscles were being so pressurized that they were gonna blow and that i might miss ani. so i fell asleep at around 5am my mom refused to let me go to school, so i stayed home woke up at 12 and got ready took the 2:40 train to huntington where i met up with nicole and we went to penn nicole got her smoothie king:) hehe then we took the subway up to 72nd got dinner at the city grille cafe and went to the beacon found a scalper giving out 5th row center and our seats were in row x, all the way in the back, so we gave him our tickets and also $25 and got our new seats... oh and was it fun? you may ask okay, ani was fabulous! no, fucking orgasmic!!! i was in a trance literally and metaphorically. at that moment she got on stage, i couldnt help but be amazed her voice, it draws you in she actually reeled me in like i was caught on a fish hook and the music was the bait her poetry was just... wow, i cant even explain it in words. she played an outstanding version of fuel and as is was uber bliss the best part was at the end when she walked off stage and then came back on an encore to evolve! and then at the end when she says: "im trying to evolve" the lights turn off on stage and everyone cheers. after that we got cappucinos and walked from 74th to 34th actually ran like 15 blocks, wasnt too much fun lol and we were on the train with all drunks but it was all in good fun. pictures next entry.... snapfish isnt working right now.

(3 je t'aimes | excusez-moi?) woo! [19 Nov 2003|05:42pm] [ mood | good ] [ music | John Lennon-(Just Like) Starting Over ] witnessed hals musical abilities last night up close and personal hoo-rah!

(excusez-moi?) lasting impression [19 Nov 2003|04:40pm] [ mood | hopeful ] [ music | Yeah Yeah Yeahs-Yeah! New York! ] I Am Abstract Expressionism Last library book checked out: The Lake House by James Patterson Last movie seen: A Clockwork Orange Last book read: 4 Blondes by Candace Bushnell Last swear word uttered: fuck Last beverage drank: ginger ale Last food consumed: rice a roni Last crush: Last phone call: jimmy Last TV show watched: uhh..... Last time showered: last night Last shoes worn: brown doc martens Last CD played: buzzcocks another music in a different k Last item bought: gatorade in school Last downloaded: zach de la rocha-CIA Last annoyance: people Last disappointment: friends Last soda drank: ginger agle Last thing written: a few words in a notebook Last key used: k Last words spoken: "i need your credit card" Last sleep: this morning Last ice cream eaten: oh wow...um. Last time amused: i am always amused Last time wanting to die: never Last time in love: what does this mean? Last time hugged: just a few hours ago Last time dancing: five minutes ago...in the privacy of my home Last poster looked at: no posters, a painting of the city.. Last web page visited: stellastarr.com

(excusez-moi?) [17 Nov 2003|10:15pm] [ mood | crappy ] [ music | Joan Jett-Crimson And Clover ] harry potter is now... HAPPY ROTTER!!!!!

(2 je t'aimes | excusez-moi?) now listen... [17 Nov 2003|07:38pm] [ mood | depressed ] [ music | Jimi Hendrix-Fire ] well, hah, yes i hate the world. some people truly suck. it pisses me off when people who dont know me, hate me for no apparent reason, i can understand if you know me and hate me, but come on people? that is ignorant bullshit. and especially, if you can only be NASTY assholes, well thats even worse. some people really have to change your never going to go anywhere, pretending to be cool and saying shit about others. i also hate when friends, supposedly "best" friends, dont give a flying fuck about you. yeah that does kinda suck. and truly, i dont care anymore nobody is going to change, but fuck this, i dont have to succumb to this, i dont have to be around negative people who can only bring others down.

(3 je t'aimes | excusez-moi?) ... [16 Nov 2003|07:07pm] [ mood | sad ] [ music | Beatles-Fool On The Hill ] Day after day alone on the hill, The man with the foolish grin is keeping perfectly still, But nobody wants to know him, They can see that he's just a fool, And he never gives an answer, But the fool on the hill Sees the sun going down, And the eyes in his head, See the world spinning around. Well on his way his head in a cloud, The man of a thousand voices talking percetly loud But nobody ever hears him, Or the sound he appears to make, And he never seems to notice, But the fool on the hill . . . Nobody seems to like him They can tell what he wants to do. And he never shows his feelings, But the fool on the hill . . . could this song be any more perfect for me right now? except the fact that i am a woman... not a man.

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